I wanted to let you guys know what I'm thinking and what is going on with my stream. The past couple months I have been finding it harder and harder to get excited for stream. It has felt more and more like a chore and has been less and less about having fun. I originally started streaming to make some friends and meet people in the Dota 2 community. I moved around a lot and found it difficult to make new friends and thought this could be a great way for me to do so. Since I moved to the states I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my time. Its been very difficult for me to balance streaming every day and exploring my new environment. I am sure you guys have noticed me get more and more frustrated. I find myself wondering who I am after stream. I am not usually that easily frustrated or that angry. Mostly I just feel like I let you guys down. My stream should be somewhere you go for entertainment and some fun at the end of the day. Anyways I have spent the last week relaxing and seeing if these feelings were what I was actually feeling or just being burnt out. I can say that I haven't missed it at all minus the amazing people I have met. I have spent more time on Twitch talking to other streamers and playing other games. I have just been overall a lot happier this past week.
With that said. I want to let you guys know I am not going to be streaming anymore. I have been streaming for 1.5 years now and it has been an amazing journey but I think I need to move forward with my life. I am most sad that I will lose easy contact with a lot of the great people I met. But I will be around Twitch all the time and I will still keep up my Twitter and Instagram but just turn them into personal ones! Maybe the occasional surprise stream but don't count on it. You guys are the best. You all played a part in the happiness I found and I appreciate it more than you will ever know.
I just want to thank all my supporters from the bottom of my heart. I never thought I would receive as much love as I did and I'm so thankful. I wish you all the very best and I hope to see some of you at TI5 or around Twitch.
From the bottom of my heart <3
Mackenzie
This is sad to hear, but im happy that you are making this decision if that is what will make you happy. i hope we can keep in touch, i really enjoyed the chats, I guess i will start playing more dota, instead of just watching :p.
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Qcute
I think I speak for everyone -- with the possible exception of anyone named after a day of the week -- that we're sad to see you go, but we understand and respect your decision.
ReplyDeleteI will eat an ice cream sandwich in your honour. Yes, we get those here now.
All the best,
Ebers
I'm glad you did a surprise stream. It was kinda sad seeing you quit streaming. /RoyalBabe
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